say the same things over and over until they're pretty

yea, hey, am I refining my vision?
which is better, 5, or 6? 6? hmm
which is better, 1, or 2? bout the same?
just picking scabs
off my eyes? off my heart? some other organ? no?
I'm just trying to get a feel here
injecting meaning like steroids,
forgetting why

yea, hey, am I making it clearer?
no?
5 was clearer.
I'm obscuring things.
rest your chin there, forehead here,
which is better, bout the same?
which looks prettier?
S G R Q 9
X L T 8 F I

addendum:
things are obscured because that's the nature of things,
my vision,
or at least, everything blurs together now
on some metaphorical level