I packed all my things
so that I could tuck them in a different closet
in a model home with a balcony
I've always wanted to emerge from a room
with sliding doors, to overlook
cascades of chrysanthemums
and balustrades entwined with ivy
rather than contemplate empty beer cans and a tent
which, having survived the soft snow's
immense weight, the squalls and tremors
that betrayed absolutely no pain
are worth nothing lying about
in how few or how many words
may I describe how it feels
to be unable to feel?
the point is that sometimes, when my stomach rumbles
my heart quickens its pace
I open up like a budding flower
the corners of my mouth curling up into a smile
because I am able to feel everything without
touching, tasting, seeing, hearing, smelling
or in any way feeling it
because it is not around me
but I am strong enough to construct it
from the scraps I find lying about
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great poetry
- you have a real talent
Thank you! I see you're a fellow Twin Peaks fan... I just can't stop listening to Julee Cruise/Badalamenti songs on youtube. It's a major inspiration
"with sliding doors, to overlook
cascades of chrysanthemums
and balustrades entwined with ivy
rather than contemplate empty beer cans and a tent" (sorry the formating is all crappy lol) Best lines! I love the flow of them and the language, the use of big words and how the contrast with the elegance then beer cans and tent. It's interesting that joy comes from an empty stomach. I like it because as the poem states, with nothing, something can be created. I'm not sure the first and second stanza are completely cohesive. since in the first stanza you talked about how you wanted the lush life. Unless the last part was a turn. (sorry if i'm being over analytical) Anyway, cool beans. You've got creativity :)
I guess the first is more about exterior appearance and the second is more about interiority. That it doesn't matter what surrounds me, my life is measured by my ability to shape it. And emptiness only means there is more room for me to work with things and try to find something fulfilling within my means.
It's that old theme of you can have everything but still not find happiness. If I have some level of richness of mind then what good is misconstruing a lack of complacency as failure? If anything it is something to be avoided. Not that I'm saying my living conditions are ideal. Just can't let that shape who I am.
I feel ya. Very cool. That's deep.
... yep big TP/DL/JC fan ... have you only *heard* J on youtube?
I don't know if you've seen TWIN PEAKS? - Julee's songs in the context of the show (and her appearences) ... take it to a whole new level (of EPIC-ness)
one example:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4F-aDwgrHBE&playnext=1&list=PLF61D0FB8014A233A
Oh yes, I've seen the series and the film, hence fellow Twin Peaks fan, and I've heard Julee Cruise's first two albums. I'm borderline obsessive I guess, but then so are many fans. I think it has a lot to do with the atmosphere too though. Like I could see myself living in that area, in Washington state, with all the mountains and such, beautiful beautiful land.
Yes, that's one of my favorite moments from the series, the song has so much more impact in the context of the show.
I just find it convenient to keep coming back to it all on youtube haha
well that's what I THOUGHT when I read ('fellow Twin Peaks fan') initially - but then I read the bit about watching J.C on youtube and wondered if you'd *only* seen j.c music clips on youtube! (know what you mean, youtube is so conveniant for a general fix of music/film clips etc!)
... thought I was the only one obsessively wanting to live there(!) -
first for t.p - but even more so after the seattle music scene
happened ... you're a lot nearer than me!
that's my favourite TP moment -
everything is perfect (Donna's reaction... )
shame the IT'S HAPPENING AGAIN spoken part wasn't on that clip
I guess for me it's a writer's dream, just go out in the wilderness and explore, some days just sit in the midst of it and write, see what comes of it. I live in the Cincinnati area, so it's closer as you say, but still I've never been that far west. Seattle is only a half hour west of North Bend/Snoqualmie, so naturally a better music scene is a huge plus. I don't really fit in here, haha, it seems I would find a better life over there if I was surrounded by like-minded people. I'll at least have to visit some day. They've held Twin Peaks Festivals in North Bend for years now, every so often you find some really good footage on youtube. There is some from this past year's event, and it has some wonderful footage of the area.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ObfAknqTDGQ
I've watched some of this but really it just makes me jealous haha. There is just something appealing though, about living in such close proximity to mountains.
Speaking of which this is also a really good video, the Dolomites in Italy I suppose. I've never been near mountains, just hills and trees... I'd love to go to Europe too someday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EZDvXzH-0I
I've heard about the festivals - sound great. sheryl lee is going to this years apparently(!) - I'm jealous too when I see the clips! - being a twin peaks fan in the uk is not good! - that's what I meant about you being closer at least!
nice dolomites video - never been there but have been to other italian mountains (I am half italian) - but was very different to the dolomites video - lots of trees + was summer ... still great but t.peaks 'mountains are the best for sure - just the area/mindset etc
don't know if you know of this blog
http://twinpeaksarchive.blogspot.com/
- loads of great images on there via d.l.com
Haha, the more trees the better. Sounds like a good experience, but I agree. Something about the Northwest US landscape. I prefer the Snoqualmie Falls to Niagara Falls just on principle... maybe not as large, but more trees surrounding, and a steeper cliff (if memory serves me correctly). I also saw some related vids of flooding from December, there were clips of the falls with a lot more water than usual coming down, it was thrilling just to watch the video, haha.
I've been to that blog, but those photos are new to me, very nice set.
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